The Sparkly Thoughts

Somehow I realized that being alone can also bring smiles, laughter and happiness which I usually see from a girl walking the street beside her lover, holding hands. There would always be a time that being all by your self is better, more meaningful and a lot more fun than being with another person. Of course at the end of the day, we would all be meeting the love of our lives, so I guess I better enjoy being with myself right now. A problem about falling in love sometimes is when all emotions and feelings come rushing in, we lost control of everything. Forgetting about yourself, your own choices, your plans, and your dreams, and get all drowned in that mesmerizing illusion of love. I have to tell this to myself because my impulsiveness can put me into trouble. I will love the life I have today—messed up, funny and unguarded. I will do whatever makes me happy, without relying so much in my emotions and feelings I can associate to be like of a sixteen-year-old girl. Why, I’m happy. And I should keep myself happy. I know I don’t deserve a frown, melancholy or a whimper.  Things happen because they are ought to happen, and people came into my life because they are ought to be there. The length of stay, however, is very, very uncertain. Now the scariest part is when you get too attached and get so involved into someone without realizing that the person is only meant to be in your life for a short time. Your fault is when you let him/her stay more than what he/she is supposed to. Then it would be so hard to let go, or to forget, because for a while you have opened up your own, true self to that someone and let your emotions, and that person’s emotions be mixed up like puzzles which will never be completed in the end no matter how you try. Your life’s missing puzzle must be in the hands of someone else. This is scary… really. How will you ever know? Does life really wants to have our hearts crushed and broken first before we could finally find true happiness? God, I’m scared…