It's like knowing something, and then you know you have nothing to do about it no matter what. In all four corners of the situation, it remains the same. You wish you can do something about it, but right from the very start when you almost tried you know there's really no way to change things. We live as what it is. One of the bittersweet ironies of life. And oh yeah, life is weird. And it's getting a lot weirder now. :-)