To a future love,
Hi. I really couldn’t wait to finally meet you, though I understand it’s not yet the time. Wherever you are right now, please take good care of yourself. And in return, I would take proper care of myself too. Please don’t fall in love with some crazy bitch before me. I would never love to accept them as part of your past. And hey, it would be of great help if you will learn how to cook. You see, it is something that I can’t do. And there are a lot more things I am not capable of. But yes, we will complement each other. I know I need not to be afraid of all my imperfections because with you, I would feel perfect. You would understand why I don’t eat raisins and why do I have severe mood swings most of the time. You would realize that I wanted my hand to be hold when crossing the street because sometimes I'm just simply scared, and how I would want to win every non sense argument. If I’m mad or pissed, just hug me. Just hug me tight. I am just a lonely, needy woman who doesn’t want to be alone. I can laugh easily, but I do cry like a baby. I could fall into a habit of tears sometimes, but I am certain that with you my tears would turn into smile. Please, don’t ever hurt me. I couldn’t stand pain. I couldn’t stand loneliness.
I would always wish for that day when I am finally going to see you. You can have everything of me. Own me. I would be willing to do everything for the person I love. And because I love you, I would try to control my emotions not to fall in love with someone else before you. I know it’s not that easy. I was, actually, having a hard time because there are people around me who could be just like you. Please, tell me if you’re near. I don’t want to make mistakes. I might fall in love with somebody soon, I’m afraid it isn’t you. I would fight hard to forget these feelings, it is not the exact feelings you wanted me to feel, right? I believe it is you if there are no more doubts and hesitations. You will make everything certain, and you will be the one to pursue me, right? I hope you understand how difficult it is to be a woman. I cannot just simply come up to a man and tell him that I love him. It is quite stupid to admit but in some cases women were expected to act frail and to just wait patiently. But if you only know how strong a woman could become by controlling all her suppressed emotions. Please, don’t let me struggle like this. I know you would take all the risks to get where I am, to reach for my heart and to create dreams with me that would almost surmount reality. I believe in you. I would love to love you more than anything in this world. And I can’t wait to speak all these things with you in front of me, right before my eyes. We will see each other soon. Whoever you are, wherever you may be right now-- I know your heart was made to beat next to mine, to complete my own heart beat and to complete my life’s music. And I can’t wait for that day…
