It is never really nice to recall this one but I did step into 2011 with a weary heart. I met that year anxious and scared of all possible situations that could lead me into disappointments, frustrations and regrets… again. The other past years had been quite challenging. But God is really so wonderful He would never put me into situations I can’t handle. I know He wants me to be tough, far from that frail, self-centered and insensitive girl I once was. And there are no words to describe how grateful I am for His undying love over pouring on me. Yeah, His love came in different packages I always get so surprised and excited. They would come in forms of events, situations or my most favorite—persons. Persons who never fail to give colorful hues in my life, be it bad or good, for they all became lessons I learned along the way. As I trudged the road of this year, I’ve realized a lot of things I was never aware of in the past. Realizations came so swiftly I was almost stunned at one point and now I understand why life is such a surprise. Everything may have been so tough, but I still love the life I have today. For the new career and colleagues I am with right now, for the best set of parents I have and the family I will always love, for the old friends who have always been there, for the new people I met who have inspired me to keep going, and for everything… for everything. I am grateful for every piece of events that occurred, for every word spoken and heard, for every laughter, smile or tear…for faith, trust, friendship and love… I may have cried a lot this year and gone through a lot of complicated things but yeah, I am happy. I may have failed myself in one thing, but yet I have a whole lot of reasons to be happy. I am letting go of all the bad thoughts and experiences, hatred, pain and anguish. Life is short to remain trapped under the bad cloud. And yes, happiness is a choice. I am learning and I know I’ll be good. Let’s raise the glass and cheers for 2012!=)))
