· Some people fall in love with swiftness and force of an electric shock, while with others the process is so gradual that the fact is not discovered until some accident or emergency reveals it to the interior perception.
-A significant person had sent this message to me, four years ago. I should have known at that moment what this thing means. Falling in love doesn’t always come in a love-at-first-sight way, some may realize it when the other person involve is gone, or is away. So it was only after he left that I realize I was falling, too bad he was no longer there to catch me. I ran out of reasons to explain to myself that it was not love that I feel, that I was just longing for a friend who had spent valuable time with me. If I were mature enough at that time, things could have changed. Or maybe, it was really ought to happen… we are never meant to be together. It is only stupid to still have him in my dreams which always seemed so real. I’ve been relying too much on fate for a long time, now I realize I cannot just sit down here and wait till my true love arrives. It would be so pathetic of me. I’m letting go the idea of love. Let it find me when everything is set, when everything is proper, when everything is ready. When I am ready. I had so many chances of meeting again this person, but we never did. It must be the bitter truth… our paths have changed and are no longer the same. No matter how hard I try, I can no longer meet him at the end of the road. There must be someone else, some other person who has been waiting and is about the trudge the same path with me. And I know, right now, it is nobody’s responsibility to keep the smile on my face. I cannot go ask someone to stay with me and keep me happy. Nobody can…or nobody would. Maybe I am still scared that people would leave. One person did, and it’s really a sad thing. I’ll keep up and I know I’ll be good..
